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AErdology TR Welling Calendar Overview My
Life Bio Based on Location · Amherst o Couple days o · Tiffin Grandma
Welling house o About 6 months o · Tiffin Moms
trailer o From 6 months to
the summer after I turned 6 o · Journey from Ohio
to Colorado o Several days o · Journey o · Bellingham wa o o First night close
to Canada Blaine § o Rest stop north
and south of town for about a month § o Chucks property § · Shakra and I Split § Shakra and I split over
an argument which turned violent. § I knew I could not
hold my temper any further § · Emma and I
together o Woburn street § o Kellogg § o Journey § o Franks place 3
days § o Journey § o Camping in az § o Reservoir Socorro
NM § o Journey § o Nickerson street
downstairs § o Nickerson Street
upstairs § o Trip across
country § o Dad in Ormond
Beach for a few days § o Kirkman and Conroy
§ o Hotels § o Kissimmee with karl, emma, dana, tandy § o Almaton circle § o Trip across
country § o Eco lodge § o Wahallis § o Lions Inn Motel § o Current Living
Location
1. born, in ohio,
I do not remember where, my family situation.
My first year living at my grandmothers
house. How did not exactly treat me
well. But then again
she may very well was a Dom, and until one reaolizes
that they are a certain way and accept that about themselves then there base
nature comes out and instead of them being good and nice people about what
there kinks are their kinks come out unhealthy. Plus I was highly illergic to corn, and fruit. So I was always
sick, and not feeling good. 2. I think my mother moved us out into
the trailro this yhear. Which would be ingterestingd
since she did a very strong independent thing during my strength year. 3. other then I spent an entirely large
amount of time with the franks, and I started to think of them more in a
family way then I did anythgin else. 4. my awareness of my mother not
exactly liking my entire situation was clear and eveident. She started making plans for us to move to
Colorado with pat,
boy did that work out great. 5. I started school, and was doing well, I at this
time started to have this incredible desire for showing my oats, but and this
is where the war started. I wanted my natural
leadership qualities to
come out and my mother did everything she could possibly thing
about to make them disappear, mostly guilt trips. And I started to be torn between the
present what momy wanted and what I wanted. Which let me tell you, have always been
separate planets from each other. During that summer, we sold everything and
moved to Colorado, and oh boy was that something that was so nice
pleasant, incredible and nice to deal with.
I was so happy I wanted to puck.
But mom was miserable too. So we where stuck in this
situation that was bad for all involved and being 5 ˝ I could do little other
then try and make the best out of it. This is where life got entirely too
difficult. Instead of it being mom and
me, and we where doing well, and I had what I
needed from the franks. I was stuck in
this situation with mom where I could only do what I was told. She handed pat the responsibilities for my
discipline, care, and just about anything she could to pat. Who to put it very mildly loathed the job. We was suddenly stuck in this situation that he had to go in
one day from being a very happy bachelor to being the primary care giver to
my mother who finally collapsed into family after her divorce. And instead of there being me and mom again
the world she gave up and submitted to her family. And pat being the pon
of grandmother did what he was told to do. 6. this is halfway thought my start of
my catholic elementary education, which was so bad that I failed my
first year. I was the only child that
failed that year. But it did give me
that advantage of being taller and a year older then
everyone else. And it also gave me
that advantage of I was never liked by any of my class mates. Even thought I was not there all the way
thought birth to kindergarten, I was an outsider to my class mates. But this did give me a distinct
advantage. Not only did it give me
that advantage of not fittin in early
but it also gave me that advantage of the fact att
I was different stuck out right from the get go. At age 5 ˝ I was informted
that I was an outsider. I was not from
Colorado; I was not from there nauborhood. And that
I needed to deal iwht my own kind. You would think that this was a very bad
thing, in actuality it was exactly the opposite. It is
an incredibly good thing for later in life.
I have always been different and this
differenced as kelp me out of the areas that it would have been very hard for
me not to be in and around. So if I would have been accepted my
the 1st graders. I could have
done some very bad things with myself. So I am
actually very happy about that. Being
rejected by everyone around you except yourself. And then coming into a realization that
understanding the self is the most important project that one can work on in there lives. Which is the key thing to all major
positive religions. Work on your self a phrase that helped me out a great deal was
“how very buddist of me” 7. this is where life gets a bit on
the hard side, we have not been living with pat for 18 months and mom is
firmly rooted in. and pat is going
along with it just because but ever day that goes
by he is more and more angry. And he
treats me more and more subconsciously badly. And I am starting to have a negatives affect on the way I
am. It is also during this year that I
met jimmy vidmare.
And we form a friendship that lasts till I am 12 and living on
paradise road. He is a strange bird,
but he is just as strange as I am so we get
along. But I suspect he is their bi or
gay. And a definite subby. So we work on a defiantly strange relationship. Which is a bad on but still is not all that
bad. So we
are ok will puberty. And one person who likes me is enough in my book. 8. I do not remember who or even when but I seam to remember that
it was some time in there that we rented the entire house and peter moved
in. boy did he get a hell of a
deal. All his money when to his saving
for his own place,
and peter and pat rented down stared and the boys where down
starts and we where eup
starts, which lasted for I think a year or two. 9. then the next few years are fuzzy,
the level of yuck in the house was going up so much that it was literally
impossible for one to keep track of everything. Plus my parents
who are actually mom pat and peter if you want to get right down to it. they where the
ones around me during my 5 to 12 years.
And my fehu was set with all but total
conflict. So I started my haggalaz with a house so angry and pissed off that one one really talks, no one really gets along other then pat and peter get along, and mom and pat get along,
but peter and mom do not get along and no one really likes me all that much.
I am a burden that has to be dealt with and a
problem that has to be solved. So my life when from Ohio of people who truly loved me and
cared for me dad and the franks, to my birth family
that lets just say things did not improve
much. Over time. It went from bad to worse over time. 10.
ok,
around this time mom and I move down stars and are on our own, she keeps a
house so messy that it is literally impossible for us to get anything
done. And after around a few months I
move mom out of the big room we share into the “living room of our little
down stares apt, which would be great if we actually had started living our
lives that way. If we would have pete and pat up stairs and mom
and me down and the boys could do what they up and we could do what we wanted
down. And things would have been
great, but by this time I am mistyer fix it. I am determined to end the uncool energy of
the house by way of fixing everyone in the houses problem. Which does not turn out that well. I stir up a hornets
nest that is still being felt now 2 decades later. So I am living
down stares with mom, and she probably wanted to have it that way, but I was
living under the false illusion that we where a
family and that we all needed to live and be ok. So I do not
remember who broke the barrier to the up stairs but
I probably did, but I can tell you that when ti was
broken, pat get old that very minute. This
may just be my not all that great a memory but I do
remember mom spending a lot of time down stairs when she did not have
to. And she did not like the
smoke. So I
do not know. What happened but it was
clearly the beginning of the end. To this day there is a great deal of
tension between the siblings. I do not
know nor care. 11.
I
start to put together an office, I start to become interested in writing 12.
The
year the wheeler house broke apart, It
all started when we wanted to move into a bigger house, all of us, the 3
siblings and me. Well
that went all fine and great until we all where
sitting having a conversation and I said something
and pat turned to dee and said now I know how you truly feel got up and
walked out of the house. He came back
and had bought a condo Year
13 mom and I am in our own house, I blow my back out that one fateful
labor day. 14,
I start to explore my independence, and start formulate
who I am, start to mess around with film making and creativity much greater then at any time before. 15,
I start to truly stick out in school, and my interests go to film making,
creativity, and exploring invention. 16,
first year of high school, that things are not all that great. I learn now to work with my Dom side, while
working at the haunted house. Much to
my mothers hatred 17
mom and I move to Socorro, my magical training begins I just do not know it
yet. I am journaling on a daily basis, I am writing scripts and stories. And generally
dumping a great deal of shit. As well
as having floe right there to make me comply with what she is interested and
wants to be doing. 18 My magical training starts, I learn to
breath, meditate, and enhance my natural psychic abilities with training. 19
I graduate, move out and continue working with my psychic abilities. Making an attempt
to go into film making. I have no
discipline no training, no skill, but I have talent, and I figured that the
rest came with talent. Little did I
know at the time that the discipline I lacked could not come from becoming a
pro film maker. 20,
I wander trying to fing out who I am, learn
mediation. Learn to try and understand
who I am. Where I am doing and what I
need to be doing. 21,
I meet shakra. My first wife. We move in together after knowing each
other for about a month. 22,
live with shakra 23,
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wandering with shakra 25,
life with Emma, starts 26,
my metaphysical shop 27,
moving to Socorro. 28
life in bc is hell, learn a mountain from the kink
communities. Learn what my boundaries
are inside kink world. Understanding
myself far behind anything I thought about before. 29
move from bc to seattle, have a great time. Seattle offers alive and job opportunities
that no where else does. Get into lessons here. 30,
spend this year trying to find another career, try and write novels, does not
work. Come up with a good concept for
solving linear A, do not pursue. Work
on building a web page, computer dies 31,
living in Seattle having a good time, but there is someth9ign missing, try my
hand at web design, it is not my thing.
Dad gets sick, go to see him and remember that I love film making and
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