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My years My
mothers family are all
hard working good folk. My
fathers family I knew very
little about. A lot of rich people.
And business owners. Addean Welling, My
mother is a career school teacher, Wes
Welling, Marylou
Welling
Frank
Welling Helen
(Ogle) Shaffer, CL
Shaffer Flo
Jeffries Pat
Jeffries Peter
Jeffries
USA
W U 1971 Th G TH Age 0-12 months
born,
in ohio, I do not remember where, my family
situation. My first year living at my grandmothers house. How did not exactly treat me well. But then again she
may very well was a Dom, and until one reaolizes
that they are a certain way and accept that about themselves then there base
nature comes out and instead of them being good and nice people about what
there kinks are their kinks come out unhealthy. Plus I was highly illergic to corn, and fruit. So I was always
sick, and not feeling good.
9. a thought When I
began this project it was with the clear
understanding that I was going to go about creating something that was not
only helpful to myself but also to the rest of the world. a. What I ended
up creating was a new way of thinking.
Based strongly on the bones of an ancient society. But what I have created goes folds behind
what the evidence that remains of that long ago ancient culture. b.
As
I build the outline, and reorganize the Futhark
itself what I want to be working on for years, put it into place and use this
as a blue print to build the site from. 10. When I first began the
research all I wanted to do was find a formula that I could understand a to
there meanings. So
I took my general interpretations from my work and the general
interpretations from the well known published
authors of our times and soured thought them looking for strings. Where do the definitions cross and what
makes sense.
After many months in looking searching and trying to find the strings,
I picked up Freya’s book Leaves of Yggdrasil. She accounted for the last 2 symbols
flipped. Daggaz
at the end. Well I took this as why
does it matter. Then I read the
language as to the possible overall flow.
Looking at the language from this standpoint it becomes extremely
clear of who the overall flow actually works. 11. When I first
encountered the runes they made perfect sense to me
but I could not explain to anyone, even me, why. I had innate ability to understand them
beyond what the books told me about them. a.
I looked
at everything that I understood about the Futhark itself and knew just knew
at the pit of my soul that there was more to the Futhark than anyone in a non initiated role could grasp. After looking at the historical references
to the Futhark the thing that grabbed my attention was that the Futhark
itself seemed to come out of thin air.
It materialized out of thin air around 300 CE. Every answer that I got after that was
totally contradictory. Everyone that I
talked to read about stated an absolute fact that the Futhark was incredible,
life changing thing. Well I agreed it
was life changing but what is it. A
language, a spiritual thing, or what. So I did some digging into the past. What I found was all but totally
incredible. 12.
USA W
TH
Age 1 Fehu
F Fehu F I
think my mother moved us out into the trailro this yhear. Which would
be ingterestingd since she did a very strong independent
thing during my strength year.
USA W A 1973 Th G R
Age 2 F U
other
then I spent an entirely large amount of time with the franks, and I started
to think of them more in a family way then I did anythgin
else.
USA W R 1974 Th G K
Age 3 F
Th my
awareness of my mother not exactly liking my entire situation was clear and eveident. She
started making plans for us to move to Colorado with pat, boy did that work out great
.
USA
W K 1975 Th G G Age
4 F A
I
started school, and was doing well, I at this time started to have this
incredible desire for showing my oats, but and this is where the war
started. I wanted my natural
leadership qualities to
come out and my mother did everything she could possibly thing
about to make them disappear, mostly guilt trips. And I started to be torn between the
present what momy wanted and what I wanted. Which let me tell you, have always been
separate planets from each other. During that summer, we sold
everything and moved to Colorado, and oh boy was that something that was so nice
pleasant, incredible and nice to deal with.
I was so happy I wanted to puck.
But mom was miserable too. So we where stuck in this
situation that was bad for all involved and being 5 ˝ I could do little other
then try and make the best out of it. This is where life got
entirely too difficult. In stead of it being mom and me, and we
where doing well, and I had what I needed from the franks. I was stuck in this situation with mom
where I could only do what I was told.
She handed pat the responsibilities for my discipline, care, and just
about anything she could to pat. Who
to put it very mildly loathed the job.
We was suddently
stuck in this situation that he had to go in one day from being a very happy
bachelor to being the primary care giver to my mother who finnaly
collapsed into family after her divorse. And instead of there being me and mom again
the world she gave up and submitted to her family. And pat being the pon
of grandmother did what he was told to do.
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6 2008]
USA W G 1976 Th G W
Age 5 F R
this
is halfway thought my start of my catholic elementrary
education, which
was so bad that I failed my first year.
I was the only child that failed that year. But it did give me that advantage of being taller
and a year older then everyone else.
And it also gave me that advantage of I was never liked by any of my
class mates. Even thought I was not
there all the way thought birth to kindergarden, I
was an outsider to my class mates. But
this did give me a distict advantage. Not only did it give me that advantage of
not fittin in early but it
also gave me that advantage of the fact att I was difffrent stuck out right from the get go. At age 5 ˝ I was informted
that I was an outsider. I was not from
Colorado, I was not from there nauborhood. And that
I needed to deal iwht my own kind. You would think that this was a very bad thing,
in actaulyity it was exactly the opposite. It is an
incredibliy good thing for later in life. I have always been different and this differneced as kelp me out of the areans
that it would havse been very hard for me not to be
in and around. So
if I would have been accepted my the 1st
graders. I could have done some very
bad things with myself. So I am acctuyally
very happy about that. Being rejected
by everyone around you except yourself.
And then coming into a reaolization that
understanding the self is the most important project that one can work on in there lives. Which is the key thing to all major
positive religions. Work on your self a phrase that helped me out a great deal was
“how very buddist of me” USA
W W 1977 Th G H Age 6 F K
this
is where life gets a bit on the hard side, we have not been living with pat
for 18 months and mom is firmly rooted in.
and pat is going along with it just because but ever
day that goes by he is more and more angry.
And he treats me more and more subcontiousl
badly. And I am starting to have a nevative affect on the way I
am. It is also during this year that I
met jimmy vidmare.
And we form a friendship that lasts till I am 12 and living on
paradise road. He is a strange bird,
but he is just as strange as I am so we get
along. But I suspect he is their bi or
gay. And a definite subby. So we work on a defiantly strange relationship. Which is a bad on but still is not all that
bad. So we
are ok will puberty. And one person who likes me is enough in my book.
Moved from Tiffin Ohio to Colorado Springs Colorado Moved into 2682 Wheeler Ave. in with Pat
Jeffries
AFter studying Dinosaurs for about 2 years. When I
was 6 mom took me to the Chicago Natural History
Museum.
USA
W H 1978 Th G N Age 7 F G From
the age of 7 to 8 I yearned to find what I could not find in any other
“normal” way that I looked. Every
major decision that I made around will this get me closer to finding what I
am searching for or is this deviating me from my path.
The first full year in Colroado. The
culture shock was omethign north of traumatic I do not remmber who
or even when but I seam to
remrmebver that it was some time in there that we
rented the entire house and peter moved in.
boy did he get a hell of a deal.
All his money when to his saving for his own place, and peter and pat rented down stared
and the boys where down startes
and we whjer eup starts,
which lasted for I think a year or two.
USA
W N 1979 Th G I
Age 8 F W
then
the next few years are fuzzy, the level of yuck in the house was going up so much
that it was literally impossible for one to keep track of everything. Plus my parents
who are actually mom pat and peter if you want to get right down to it. they where the
ones around me during my 5 to 12 years.
And my fehu was set with all but total
conflict. So
I started my haggalaz with a house so angry and
pissed off that one one really talkes,
no one really gets along other then pat and peter get along, and mom and pat
get along, but peter and mom do not get along and no one really likes me all
that much. I am a burnen that has
to be dealt with and a problem that has to be solved. So my life when
from ohio of people who truly loved me and cared
for me dad and the franks, to my birth family that lets just say things did not improve much. Over time.
It went from bad to worse over time. USA
W I 1980 Th G J
Age 9 F H ok,
around this time mom and I move down stars and are on our own, she keeps a
house so messy that it is literally impossible for us to get anything
done. And after around a few months I
move mom out of the big room we share into the
“living room of our little down stares apt, which would be great if we
actually had started living our lives that way. If we would have pete
and pat up stairs and mom and me down and the boys
could do what they up and we could do what we wanted down. And things would have been great, but by
this time I am mistyer fix it. I am dertermined
to end the uncool energy of the house by way of fixing everyeon
in the housees problem. Which doesn not
turn out that well. I stir up a hornets nest that is still being felt now 2 decades
later. So I
am living down stares with mom, and she probably wanted to have it that way,
but I was living under the false illustion that we where a family and that we all needed to live and be
ok. So I do
not remember who broke the barrier to the up stairs
but I probably did, but I can tell you that when ti
was broken, pat get old that very minute.
This may just be my not all that great a memory
but I do rememmver mom spending a lot of time down
stairs when she did not have to. And
she did not like the smoke. So I do not know.
What happened but it was clearly the beginning of the end. To this day
there is a great deal of tention between the
siblings. I do not know nor care. Christmas, marked by
the release of superman
USA
W J 1981 Th G Ǽ Age 10
F N
Christmas
marked by “empire strikes back” which was released more than a year previous.
The toys went on sale in January, so they purchased the toys and gave them to
me the next year.
USA
W Ǽ 1982 Th G P Age 11
F I
USA
W P 1983 Th G Al Age 12 F J
1.
I start to put together an office, I start to become interested
in writing 2.
The year the wheeler house broke apart, It
all started when we wanted to move into a bigger house, all of us, the 3 sibliings and me. Well
that went all fine and great until we all where
sitting having a conversation and I said something and pat turned to dee and
said now I know how you truly feel got up and walked out of the house. He came back and had bought a condo USA
W Al 1984 Th G S Age 13
F Ǽ
Year
13 mom and I am in our own house, I blow my back out that one fatefull labor day. Labor day Monday blow out my back L5 S1
Michael
Jackson Victory Tour, This
was at Mile High Stadium in august. It was the one and only concert I
attended and was the absolute definition of a waste of money. I could not see
a thing. I was too short to see over the crowd, I did not see the stage at
all. I
remember sitting down and just waiting till after the concert was over. I
hated the whole experience. Rob,
Mom, and I went. USA
W S 1985 Th G T Age 14
F P
I
start to explore my independence, and start formulate
who I am, start to mess around with film making and creativity much greater then at any time before. First
year in 801 Paradise Lane USA W T 1986 Th G B Age 15
F AL
I
start to truly stick out in school, and my interests go to film making,
creativity, and exploring invention.
USA
W B 1987 Th G E Age 16 F S
Only
Year at Coronado High School, moved to Socorro New Mexico in with Grandma
Jeffries first
year of high school, that things are not all that great. I learn now to work with my Dom side, while
working at the haunted house. Much to
my mothers hatered
USA
W E 1988 Th G M Age 17
F T First
year in Socorro mom
and I move to Socorro, my magical training begins I just do not know it
yet. I am journelaing
on a dayly basis, I am writing scripts and stories.
And generally dumping a great deal of shit.
As well as having floe right there to make me complay
with what she is interested and wants to be doing. My
magical training starts, I learn to breath, meditate, and inhance
my natural psychic abilities with training. USA
W M 1989 Th G L Age 18
F B
Shortly
after the end of my first of Classes at Socorro High School, just after July
4. I in effect ran away from home to Colorado Springs on my way to Dad's.
USA
W L 1990 Th G Ing Age 19
F E
The
year I graduated High School in Socorro New Mexico. 6
months previous sent the summer in Flagler Beach Florida with dad and Grandma
Welling. I
graduate, move out and continue working with my psychic abiltites. Making an attempt
to go into film making. I have no
discipline no training, no skill, but I have talent, and I figured that the
rest came with talent. Little did I
know at the time that the discipline I lacked could not come from becoming a
pro film maker. I
began writing this tomb as a way of keeping track of my learning. Long before I came across the information
that would eventually become this book and the series to follow, I was simply
writing down the ideas I was learning by working with the symbols themselves
letting the symbols teach me. It began
as the notes of a frightened youngster looking for something which made
sense. Nothing out of the Middle
Eastern, Meditaranian, Patriarchal back ground fit
me as I have a strong feminine side.
I was looking for something I could only describe as missing. I was looking for something I knew to be
there but was like the old walled up wing in an old library where even the
Librarian does not remember where that wind is or if that wing even existed.
At about 19 I
discovered metaphysics, and all the differing paths from and to that specific
form of philosophy. Since it has
Christianity within it s well as all other
philosophies I took it upon myself to learn all I could. What I found was the
runes, and deceased language or something left by the tribes and cultures of
Northern Europe. With no clear idea of
what they are or where they cam from. Well I decided to look
into these strange and interesting things for me and for the first
time in my life I all but forgot about finding that lost door way into the
forgotten library I had been searching for since I was a kid. After many years of
searching into the runes I came across the notion that they
where far older and more incredible then anyone else gave them credit
for. I simply looked and
the name rune simple translation.
Secret or hidden meaning.
Looked at the historical account of the Greece’s and Romans very
unhappy about begging shut out of the information loop and being totally
wiped on the battle field. Taking
these small details apart and going into the few
books on the subjects I could find to see if there where
any tangible links follow. The more I dug the
more it all made sense. This is an
intense program language that did not evolve past that stage since it worked
quite well on its own. Then I saw potagreoums theory on the rabbits reproductive cycles, 1 2 3 5 8
and so on. Well then I looked at the picture from a different angle what
if I take the basics from this language and apply those theories to today’s
understanding of the universe and see what I get. The answer still to this day astounds
me. This map is a dozen
things in one. First it is a human
physiological electromagnetic cycle’s map.
Which measures what will happen and when according to different
stimulation. IT is a weather map, telling
different cycles of weather patterns all over the world It is a human
civilization map telling what will happen at different evolutionary stages. It is a electro magnetic impulse map what will determine
electromagnetic cycles,
This one is obvious since all the above are controlled and
directed according to different electromagnetic stimulations It is also a science
telling of physics mathematics and a formula for understanding how it all
works form the big picture to the smallest of things. The smaller then atoms
to the biggest of the big. And
everything in between. What I have found is
while researching the origins of a language within the framework of what I
could find I discovered that I map of a language used over 3 thousand years
ago had remarkable impact on modern day science. This impact derives primarily from the o.
I wanted to make a small note about the
idea of the historical accuracies or inaccuracies of the Futhark
concepts. Let me be totally clear on this
aspect. It does not matter if the
knowledge we have today is exactly that same as the information of the
past. Trying to prove anything in the
Futhark past say around 100 ad is all but totally
impossible. I am not trying to cast
blame on anyone or any organization but the facts
are that the Vatican was in charge of all of Europe for over 800 years. In that time they
had to time destroy al but everything that could
get there hands on. So any argument
about when they originated ort what they are connected to or that suddenly at
around middle and northern Europhobia scattered between Iceland and the steps
of Russia all the native cultures had the base of there
language in the runic Futhark, the characters are similar the meanings are
similar and the cultural understand how to lives ones
life is similar. So even thought the historical accuracies or inaccuracy the facts
do no6 add up and until no date is found ancient secrets societies reveal there information or the Vatican or any other major house
of knowledge the ottomans for instance who had access to information and
disposed of it that way they say fit
until this information is found the nay Sayers will not stop seeing
there is no historical proof that these things even existed before 100 ad because
that monolith over there was carved at that point. It does not matter at all about any of the
information involved with historical accuracies. The only thing that matters is how this
affects my life in the right here and now.
What lessons can I have that will positively affect my life to the
benefit my life ion the right now. If
I learn this runic/Futhark stuff will that knowledge aid and assisted me
in the pursuit of eat sleep propagate,
or life liberty and the pursuit of happiness, or even help me understand myself just that
little bit more so I can have a bit of an easier life. My answers to that question is yes my research can positive affect our lives to the
absolute positive within a coupe of minu tes reading the extended
cycles. Specific the generation map.
DJ at wizards apprentice a.
I started
this system to better understanding of not only what the runic/Futhark where in
ancient history but what the runes mean now to me and my life right now. I started this system to better
understanding of not only what the runic/Futhark where in ancient history but what
the runes mean now to me and my life right now. b.
Throughout
the last ten years of my life have learned a great deal about all kinds of
interesting things. The first basic
lesson the tavern was about to patients things half
to happen in the very specific way and specific format. The first major portion by talk to ` this
store roof to both influenced me the most and did some very other strange
things was DJ from the Wizards printers.
In his first concept about life was that one needs to in the there beginning of the tomb the first three words we put
in there is patience patients. Thus which actually confused me in the very beginning because
my entire concept of life of time ones you do want whenever you need shoot
the specific minute second hour day year life wherever else can you be done
would be done letter so patients patients
patient. Is not really a good concept
the has there’s things you need to do now leave the news of the that will do
this right to from which need to do now up next I
held this tube. For me. And then realized that to create something
from future you need to have patients enough to build now the do nothing with
sit until later that from patients comes in.
13. Direction of information This book
is dedicated to finding the higher path for us all, One person at a time, There are dozens of sayings to encourage us
to tackle the biggest problem of all cleaning up our own problems. Your nature problems are not your own, You can help them out by wisdom, or a helping hand but you
cant solve their problems for them. and if they choose to continue doing the
destructive path they are on then help clean up their mess and hope there is someone else
to help you when you cannot clean up your own mess. 14. dedication This site is dedicated to the understanding and formulation of the
Futhark, Now it is a profoundly ancient language but
it is also been changed and modified though out the millennia. Now I have turned the language upside down
to try to find out what the original information was that was so profound as
to be the center point to an entire culture over vast centuries that was so
important that the secrets where kept from all outside invaders, What was so important as to fall to
genocide rather then give up what the language mean 15. In the vastness of time
there has been a great deal done about the history of civilizations. And in this history
there becomes a problem. The problem
occurs when the individual in question starts asking what really
happened. This is an impossible
question because history is always written from a point of view of the
conqueror. So
the very notion that anything is accurate is wrong. So most of what we
know can not be true about what actually
happened. So
all we can really do is try and piece together what happened from the actual
stuff that was left behind that the conqueror did not get around to
destroying before they themselves where conquered by someone else. 16. After carefully considering all that has been
stated to me. And the amount of heat
that has been directed at me does to the point of view that I have towards
the Futhark. Before I was unable to
clearly state what it is that I am working on. I am unable to give to you a small portion
of my book, it will make all but no sense out of context. a. What I have
attempted to do is to look at the Futhark as it is. What is this thing the ancients left us. Now this does
not address in any way shape or form anything in history proving one way or
another. I am not working from a archeological, mythology, or
prove it was this way. I have worked
from the angle that the Futhark is more then we give it credit for being. b. Let’s look at the facts, the
long house, and long boat, traveling the north Atlantic without a compass,
sophisticated metal working abilities, and absolutely no record of a written
language. Come on now, the rules that
govern the workings of a community dictate that a group of people to do
anything on a multi century, multi thousand mile
expanse of land must have a language.
As well as mathematics and a solid cultural philosophy. Now in the archeological record there is no
archeological record. Other then vague
references to a primitive culture in Northern Europe. Well that is fine but that does not add
up. They where
able to do all that with no language, no math, no community, and leave no
record. Ok my unmentionable meter is
pegging off the scale. 17. To truly understand the Futhark one must take
it upon you to look at the environment in which the Futhark was created. The environment was not like Europe is
today. Today’s temperate climate as
well as the much smaller animals is a far cry from the Europe of even a few
thousand years ago. Around 7 to 10
thousand years ago Europe had minor glaciations. Ice covered large sections of Europe. So anyone living
there would have to be living butted up against the glacier in order to keep
warm and have ground under there feet. Anywhere else is inhospitable to human
life. So the
peoples of that area where butted quite literally up against the only safe
place to be. The temp is 60 to 80’,
water is pure, and the ground is not frozen.
As well as every other thing that is hanging around in that area. The animals of the area are not exactly
what would be considered to be small. The cave bear, and aurox,
as well as a few others each is a ton or two and each have a rather
interesting temperament. So the Nordics had nature playing itself out right in
front of them. Observing the natural
cycles of life would have been as easy as observing your family during long periods of inner quiet as well as opening a “window”
and looking at how animals interact with each other. Not to mention weather patterns. Everything in that situation would be
amplified a couple hundred fold. So the task of
keeping everything working and flowing went to the leaders who if they had
any observation skills at all would see and react with there
surroundings. a. With that
idea in mind, the symbolic concept of the Futhark then became totally
clear. b.
an
adventure of the mind, body, and spirit.
This is a journey of self discovery through self understanding.
The information in this book came from working with the cultures
archeological evidence itself.
Discovering the ancient peoples of Europe from the physical evidence
they left behind with the available language of there
dependence I will take you on a journey of realization. The symbols which make up the language
consist of formulas for humans to live better amongst themselves, others, and
in harmony with the planet. The
ancients realized the cycles of life, death, rebirth, basic communication, and
how a community could begin realization of the self and the needs of the
self, then the combining of these factors to create a balanced and nurturing
society could be created out of the framework of the language. Throught the
interconnectedness of all things. Our
past is an amalgam of the experiences of our race, this planet, and the
spiritual realms which we are a part. 18. What I found was that there is a divination
devise, which was not actually a divination devise at all in the beginning,
it was a language, cultural identity, mathematics, science, psychology,
psychological map, as well as a spiritual explanation of things that
primitive culture as well as we today barely understand. The Futhark as I have been calling it
since the word rune or runa (Latin, German) means
"Hidden or secret meaning” Well I have spend a considerable amount of time researching if
there was a secret or hidden meaning then it was to be findable and
understandable. 19. I make no claims that this is real this a fact,
in fact that is why I call it the welling Futhark I put my name in front to
let everyone know that this is not anything but what I have been able to put
together from history, language, and taking the threads of all the books I
read and putting them together to see if the Futhark could make some as
semblance of sense. a. When I
began this project it was with the clear
understanding that I was going to go about creating something that was not
only helpful to myself but also to the rest of the world. b. What I ended up creating was
a new way of thinking. Based strongly
on the bones of an ancient society.
But what I have created goes folds behind what the evidence that
remains of that long ago ancient culture.
c.
As
I build the outline, and reorganize the Futhark
itself what I want to be working on for years, put it into place and use this
as a blue print to build the site from. 20. Futhark book of life. what I am about to write about is what not
only one but several cultures decided to choose genocide
rather then give up there
secrets. In that the souls were lost for many reasons. But thier not totally lost. It only took me 6 yeas to decode the secrets. The secrets are. That the
language in several things cell wander. The language in based sortof based on the cycles of bature.
But that’s only sort of it. The reality of life is the important thing to
remember. I have developed a dozen theories as to how the language culture
and philosophy came to be. And into being but the absolute truth to it all in
that these are only theories ideas educated constructsand
meditation. Instired dreams and visions. The truth
in that we mayu never know what happened in the
northern east before the romans and greak invasions
but what is left over after the cultures demise is 21. Then
I saw potagreoums theory on the rabbits
reproductive cycles,
1 2 3 5 8 and so on. a.
Well then I looked at the picture from a different angle what
if I take the basics from this language and apply those therories
to today's uinderstanding of the universe and see
what I get. The answer still to this day asstounsds me. b.
This map
is a dozen things in one. First it is
a human phycilogical electromagnetic cycles
map. Which measures what will happaen and when according to different stimulation. c.
IT is a
weather map, telling
different cycles of weather paterns all over the
world d.
It is a
human civilaiztion map telling what I will happen
at different eveluationalry stages. e.
It is a elcetro amgnectic impulse map
what will detarmine electromagnetic cycles, Thi one is obvieous
since all the above are controlled and diredcted
according to different electromagnetic stimulations f.
It is also
a science telling of physics mathmatics and a
formula for understnding how it all works form the big picture to
the smallest of things .the smaller then atomes to
the biggest of the big. And everything
in between. 22. From the age of 7 ot 8 I yearned to find what I could not find in any other
“normal” way that I looked. Every
major desition that I made around will this get me
closer to finding what I am surching for ormis this deviating me from my path. a.
At about
19 I discovered metaphysics, and all the differing paths from and
to that specific form of phylosophy. Since it has chricstianity
within it s well as all other phylosohies
I took it appon myself to learn all I could. b.
What I
found was the runes,
and andicent laguage
or someting left by the tribes and cultures of
Northern Europe. With no clear idea of
what they are or where they cam efrom. Well I desided to
look into these strange and interesting things for myself and for the first
time in my life I all but forgott about finding
that lost door way into
the forgotten library I ahd een searching for since I was a kid. c.
Afte many years of
searching into the runes I came across the notion that they
where farr plder
and more incredible then anyone else gave them credit for. d.
I simply
looked and the name rune simple translation.
Secret or hidden meaning. Lookied at the historical account of the greeeces and romans very unhappy about beging shut out o fthe information loop and beign
totally wipped on the battle field. Taking these small
details apart and going into the few books on the subjects I could
find to see if there where any tangable
linkst follow.
e.
The more I
dug thet mor eit all made sence. Thi si a intence epogram laguae that did not eveolve past that stage since it worked quite well on oits own. 23. 1 in the beginig my first dedication a.
I had been
taken through he normal parochial education systmel of the mythology of the ancient religions. But it was made totally and completely
clear to me that these where mythologies and not actually religions. These where separation of church and state
teachers paid by the federal government teaching that the only religions
allowed where monotheistic middle east origins. All the rest there mythologies and or weird Indian and asain oddities, that could not be downplayed but where
not given any respect either. b.
But the
thought occurred to me, if may thousands and perhaps millions of poepel for many centuries and millennia believed in these
religions, and they where just as real to them as monotheistic
religions are to this country. Then
that hole concept of these are mythologies and not
real religions is just a bunch of huy. This was at the tender age of 10, I did
some more work, search and trying to figure out what was happening to me and
what I truly believed in. Having no
luck with the monotheistic religions that where around at the time. c.
I just did
not like what I was hearing or reading, monotheistic religions just do not do
it for me, sorry but they are a world of contradictions, it just simply does
not make any sense to me to have a god of love that is that vengufull. Who
loves his creations but do anything to anger him and man you get the lions share of punishment. That the only true thing to do is to spend
an entire life on your knees in servitude, and begging for everything, all
that happens good is his doing, all that happens bad is you did something
wrong. d.
To tell
you the truth, this just does not sit well with me. In fact I do not
like it in any way. I was raised in a
family of not friendly do what the patriarc of the
house wants be on your knees to him, anything he
gives you is great, you pleased him in some unknown way, anything you do to
break his unwritten rules is uncharted levels of anger and rage. This sounded very familiar with me, I looked at the
family I was raised in and noticed far to many
connections to that of the monotheistic religions that I was being told I had
to follow. e.
Now of
this blew my skirt up, infact all of this I wanted
to run from screaming. I hated it
all. The more I tried to please the
more I was punished the more I was myself and strong and indepentant
the more I was punished. I could not
do anything correct, and the same goes for the monotheistic religions. So it was all bad. f.
Now I am
not saying that the gentleman in question was bad, I give him a large amount
of credit and thanks for teaching me some extremely valuable lessons. Without
his lessons this research and solving the ancient language would have been
totally impossibly. So please this is
not written as an indictment of the way I was raised but as a thank you for
showing me an angle to life that I might not have seen in any other way. g.
I can not tell you how thanksfull
I am because if I had not of persuid the course of
“Temet Nosce” then I do
not know how safe and sane of an individual I would be. My temper is very similar to that of the 2
families I come from. The matricarcal and the patriarchal both sides of my family
lines have intense tempers, and stubbornness to beet
the band. It was simple amazing. The funnies part is that there are a dozen
people in this world who are totally in fear or my temper, but the people who
should know that my temper is a formatable tool are
the very ones that do not believe I have a temper. Its just one a lifes little ironies. Those that gave me the temper are
the ones who do not think I have one. h.
But I
digress, the more I looked at it the more I understood that the pantheons of
the ancient world the more I liked what I looked at. i.
The more I
looked the more I understood that those meant so much more to me then I can
tell you, so at the age of around 12 just starting junior high, as in I think
the first day I started junior high I to myself dedicated myself to the
Nordic religion, The ways of Odin and Freya. To the runes and the ways of
old. I did not like the Greek pantheon
since it did not feel correct to me, I did not find out till later that the
Greeks could have adapted there pantheon from that
of the mycaenians, and mycaenians
got there pantheon from the cretains. Or Minoans to put it another way that is
not an insult to the people of Crete. SO I liked the Nordic, the runes, the mythical creatures
that where attached, the strength and determineation,
there was little about it I did not like. So at the age of 12 first day of junior high I
was then and to mostly except for a little bit here and there of backsliding
due to some working out personal issues, I have been a devoted pagan ever since,
even though most of the next 8 years I did not have a clue of the words to
use. I just knew what I felt. And I knew that it was important to keep
walking the path of this religion that I felt a strong connection to but
could not find enough books on the subject to be able to read about it
successfully. USA
W Ing 1991 Th G O Age 20
F M I
wander trying to fing out who I am, learn
mediation. Learn to try and understand
who I am. Where I am doing and what I
need to be doing. Beginning
to channel This
book turned into the form you see now throught
channeling. I would go into a deap meditation, focus on a specific time, idea, or ask
for guidence as to what I needed to learn
next. I would start to see pictures
scenes and experience what was going on.
I learned how to tell year time by my preknowledge
of history and I
looked for clues as to the age of the situation. If there was no way of telling or the
facts I know cortadicted what I saw I asked my
guide the year according the to my understanding of the Gragorian
calendar. My friends started
listening and writing down what I has saying. I discovered when I read the stories this
was Ancient Europe. A world very
different then any history book will every tell you. A world of mystery, magic, Fairies, and
the unknown wrapped into a culture who's height was
many centuries before the Greeces formed there city
states. This was a matriarchal world
of wandering tribes or families. The
people were called the Celts and they wandered living within the cycles of
nature and the balance and harmony of life with the land. There phylosoph
of life eventually formed into a laguage wich would over several more hundreds of year be know as the runes. USA
W O 1992 Th G D Age 21 F L Well
since I can not find my other doc with these notes
taken down I guess I will start another. Ok
I had this really simple idea a while back about
religions, mainly to help me understand them better but it soon with the help
of my incredibly wonderfull mind blow into
something incredibley complex and it may even be a
book or too all by itself. Which is
something I not only did not want but it is something that I actually would
work aagainst.. The
thing is the idea is a little article about the goings on within the
religions and philosophies of the prechristain
northern European tribes. That is all
well and good. A brief explanation of there names and what they did. And approximately what time in history they
did it. Or at least by the current
Gregorian cal when. Then
I start thinking about the rituals and ceremonies of the religions another
book Then
I started thinkiong about the theology, what is the basics of this thought
form, what is the philosophy. Then
I started thinking about the world religions and then the idea just totlay awamped me. This
is something I have not interest in learning about
much less writing about. I am actually trying to get away form
religions practices not imbrace a world stage about
them
21
Book one the begining. The first book, my innitionall
journal
4
21 92 well
lets seen here I have jsut discovered my sub
purpose for to my gat. Is to teach the
world and guide the world a neew vantagepoint. Shit why did it hake 21 years for USA
W D 1993 The W
F Age 22
F Ing live
with shakra
I
meet shakra. My first wife. We move in together after knowing each
other for about a month.
USA
H F 1994 The W U Age 23
F O USA
H U 1995 The W
Th Age 24 F D
wandering with shakra a month or so after moving to Bellingham from AZ,
Shakra and I met Chuck and Jennika
at UCM. Universal Church of the Masters. Which was Christ based, but Christ/metaphysical.
Shakra and I lived here for
months through the winter. It was an interesting experience. It was an
extremely pain full experience. Shakra and my relationship ended
in that cabin to the right. Which was more of a large tree house. We started out in the trailer; within a few
weeks moved to the cabin and spent the rest of the time in that cabin. It was cold, dark, nasty, and without emma not all that livable. Water, biowaste, food, etc. all had to be
brought in. Chuck was no dream landlord, we stayed their, but he demanded rent in the form of construction. But
my body was not up to it. It was a very inappropriate experience. Also at the very end Robin O’Neil
moved in to the trailer and that produced no end of fighting and arguing. Emma gave me an out, and I took it. the out was
to move in with her, and her 4 bratts. Most of my life I have made decisions based on reactdions to anger and rage. I get upset and have to
find a solution. Then I get stuck in the solution. I was raised in a fight or flight; jump from loation to location while people hurt me and enjoyed it. [11
27 2001 820pm] I
began writing this tomb as a way of keeping track of my learning. Long
before I came across the information which would eventually become this book
and the series to follow. I
was simply writing down the ideas I was learning by working with the symbols
themselves letting the symbols teach me.
I
began as the notes as I a frightened youngster looking for something which
made sense. Nothing
out of the Middle Eastern Mediterranean Patriarchal back ground fit me as I
have a strong feminine side. I
was looking for something I could only describe as missing. I was looking for something I knew to be
there but was like the old walled up wing in an old library where even the
Librarian does not remember where that wind is or if that wing even existed. I
began my search. My first
metaphysical store, I was a scared and frientened
but determined, walking into a big unknow, searching for something I did not
know even existed. I took a lot of
time and coxing my self into entering for I was
taught my parents and society then anything not Christain
was evil. I entered the shop looked around, and began to ask questions of the customers and
the cashier. Fortunatly
faite led me to just the correct people at the
correct time. My education began,
within 10 minutes of walking in the door and asking the cashier the basic and
standar questions the gentleman she was taking to
picked up a bag, opened it, took out a piece of tile, small, oval, one side
blank, the other side had a brownish character one I did not recognize. He told me to pick one, I did. I do not remember what character it was but I just had my first rune reading. This was my introduction into divination
other than Tarot. I ask what it
meant, I was handed the small explanation book that went with the bag and
read the front inside cover as to its meaning. From then one I was hooked. The rune set I "played" with
that day invited me into the world of the ancient northern people. My research into what those odd looking figures meant was the beginning of my
metaphysical, magical, spiritual, and life journey. My
training in the craft was not one of reading every book I could get my hands
on but to talk to every one
I could to see where they where comming
form. I infact
did not start reading craft books until after I owned my own metaphysical
book store and read the invintory. This begining
allowed me the ability to intereact with teachers
who had read the books and had done there
own studies. I studied privatly by learning medatation
to find the answers I was looking for.
In a short time the information came I never
took a piece of channelled information without
backing it up first with evidence from at least 4 seperate
sources. After from long hours
working and trying to understand the secrets I know to be there,
but was unable to find it through practical means. The universal truths came clear to me as I
was comparing the notes I was gathering with the patterns of inforamtion which matched almost to the letter no matter
who I talked to. This I learned
latter is the cusp of the my research into the ancient
culture. The ancients knew what
nature was and working with specific tools and guide pionts
could successfully predict the cycels of nature and
before long this knowledge was transfered into a
teaching tool which when followed and observed can guide the individaul on there path tward learning and understanding of where the individaul has come form, where
you are now, and where one is going .
With these maps. The causes
for things to happen and where things are going. Just one of the secrets I learned came
from basic psychic training, I learned that everyone opening there psychic abilities for the first time reseave the devistation this
culture could suffer if there was not a change in the individauls
understanding of life and how we can all live better. These images are the societal illusions we
as a race create throught fear and ignarace which are there to jolt us individually to see
where we are and where we are going.
Certain unchangeable feelings emotions and general overall ideas where
present. More patterns emerged and it
all came back to the first spiritual book I picked up in my first
metaphysical store. "The Book of
Runes" by Ralph Blum. Throught other research the word rune is not an actual discription of the langauge but
is in fact a Latin word meaning, Runa, or rune, for "Hidden or Secret meaning", which still holds the
intention in modern English. As my
research continued what I read of other runes writers and researchers had
huge logical and philosophical gaps to it.
Since they where writting
from a different knolwedge basic. Some from the Anglo/Saxon, the Viking, and
the Odinist understanding. All of
which are valid but they cover specific ideas. There is a basic message intermixed
through the different books. The
runic symbols and the understandings of everyday life actually
have a great deal in common which are enormous bridges of
understanding we can pick up. If we
can figure out the secrets our ansestors have left
for us in our own way then we may be able to
understand others as to what is going on in there
life. Then the mysterious symbols
carved into rock telling of as yet not totally
understandable stories of another time will be finnally
understood. When that happens we will have a large glimps
into our past to learn the lessons contained there as well as the lesosns we have learned form
not having that knowledge About
the time I discovered the Edda's a wise older woman told me when I discussed
the edda's with her as to whether I should purchase
them to read and research she told me the the key
which shaped my life. "Son the
people of ancient Europe where a highly advanced and sophisticated group of
people who had never heard of Judaism much less lived there lives under a
Christian government, the men who wrote the Edda's wrote under the Christian
flag, they where not Christens but the influences
are there. Go within yourself to
discover who you are, what you are needing to discover and most important
remember your history. What happened
when, in what country, and who was writing the history". At that she walked away. Following most of the confusion in the
language was in the 200 c.e. to 800 c.e. the time of the Anglo/Saxon influence on
Britain. A mass religion was creates out of the bodes of the
6 major religion of the period. The
Roman, the Greece, the Egyptian, the Celtic, the Nordic/Germanic, and the
Goddess today this realigion is know
as Wicca. This provided me a unique
perspective to see the arts, the craft, and the alternative religoins.
Allowing for a diffenret outlook at every thing with this idea in
mind. These events can be followed throught observing the natural course of development throught time and cultural exchanges. Pj around 1995
[7
13 2001 314pm] I
am beginning to see how things can be stretched out over many years. My
desperate search to find in time how been purbally
accomplished. I have found part of the
secrets but over
there next several years I probably need to learn not only prog and game consuction but also scientific journey as to communicatio my ideas to world so they will be
accepted. I do not understand yet how
to go about this since I am not a confrontational person. USA
H U 1995 The W Th Age 24 F D [7
25 2003 1228pm] I
have decided to take some helpful advise
and write responses in the wp and paste them in to they are easier to read. First I read the first couple of chapters of your
story and when I got past the slight inaccuracies of the spell casting
formulas you where using it read very smooth and
consistent. It was a good read but I have so little time to do that that I read it a
couple of weeks ago and have not gotten back to it. 16 hour days
kill. I also try to return e-mails
after work. I know not a bright idea
but hay. The character development
was very good. And the actions where
not really foreseeable but understandable so its not predictable, good thing for a story. I stopped reading ad
the end of the exercise when there was something wrong and did not have the
time to focus my mind into read it further.
I will make time probably today. As
to clairsentience. The one and only
reference to it was from another reader who told me that that’s what she was
and gave me a bit of a description of it.
I have not found the reference in any other form other then her but after I know her for a while we talked again and she told gave me a bit more of a well rounded explanation of what it was and I immediately
when to trying to learn about it myself.
I found no reference to it but I did discover
that it is similar to reading with all the different points of view of the
different chakras as well as the application of reading the energy vibrations
of this world and learning the language.
All energy has a language to it that is works with and around. So learning the
patterns to a forms and flows of energy is in a sense a language, so learning
to interpret what was going to happen in a given situation or two an
individual in a given situation and seeing the energy patterns which are
present is in a way clairsentience. Its using the 3rd eye to see the patens, using
the heart to sort of freeze frame a specific movement to see the internal
pattern. And understand what is
happening by isolation your individual chakras in certain very intense
formats to see who you react to that specific energy pattern. And you have an idea of what cleirsecnetice is all about, using all your senses to
tell you what is happening. As
to the Dawn thing, yes she can be a bit on the
difficult side, but then again dawn has very set opinions as to how things
should be. I like her
but she is still set in her ways. Shawn USA H TH 1996 The W A Age 25
U F
life
with Emma, starts Woburn st
July
31 Shakra Died Metamorphosis book store
Kellog rd
USA
H A 1997 The W R Age 26
U U my
metaphysical shop Metamorphosis 1996 1001 Dupont st Bellingham WA
Moved
to Socorro, New Mexico 87801 Reservour rd Socorro
[4 11 2002 3:29am] This may acctually be more dififcult
then I thought. Science acctually does not see any interaction between the dififerent scienses. Chemistry physics math and the like are acctyually thought to be diffierent. And not fingeres
fo the same hand.
Today
I acctually found out what exacty
the problem with me working on this information and releasing it to the general public.
Most fo the problm
is that science does not see the interaction and the interdependence of each othethe different brranches. Oh my what do I do???? Celtic
science acctually approches
the answers from a totally different area as well as different phylosophy. Paying
attention to USA
H R 1998 The W K Age 27
U Th moving
to Socorro. Moved
to Cali after a year. USA
H K 1999 The W G Age 28
U A life
in boulder creek, California is hell, learn a mountain from the
kink communities. Learn what my
boundaries are inside kink world. Understading myself farr behind
anything I thought about before. USA
H G 2000 The W W Age 29 U R move
from bc to seattle, have a great time. seattel offers alive and job opportunities that no where else does.
Get into lessons here. USA
H W 2001 The W H Age 30
U K spend
this year ttryign to find another career, try and
write novels, does not work. Come up
with a good concept for solving linear A, do not pursue. Work on building a web page, computer dies USA
H H 2002 The W
N Age 31
U G livgin in seattle
having a good time, but there is someth9ign missing,
try my hand at web design, it is not my thing. Dad gets sick, go to see him and remember
that I love film making and have the discipline to do it now. February 14
[6
5 2009 1234am] This
pic was taken downstairs at Nickerson #3, seattle wa. This
was taken by jen kilmer
shortly before we started counseling. March
[?
6 3 2009] I have been a practicing pagan for several years now, I started my campain
of learning form the early age of living in a area
of the country so conservative that it was hard to find any information based
in anything other then the christrian
dectorins of the bornagain
fundamentalictic Christian community, I will not go as far as to say that the christain communtih is in way
shape or form a society, but I will say they mange
to keep the influence of other societies out of other concepts rather
well. But allas
I degress from the point, the point that I would like to make at this time is that I am wanting to tell you
the individual that there is a great deal of interest and involvment
within the craft community toward keeping its secrets secret, so here I come along with my want need
and desire for there to be open
communication and dialog amongst people to learn and grow according to all
information that is possible to give.
Being able to openly share knowledge wisdom understandings as well as
openly, have insightfull dialog about the events
which shape our world. The information
I have gathered over the years, is mostly devine insiration, and of that divine inspitation
I have put forward a great deal of information based on the concepts of the
carrying forward and presenting that information to the general public, I have had many a
inner battle over the ideas I have had, over the very idea of sharing those
ideas with the general public, I have
a web site now that I could put literally anything on it that I choose to put
on it, and I have been reluctant to
even consider the possibility of putting my vast data base of information on
it, one for feer
of others will make money off of it,
and the ideas would be stolen from me,
which is sort of in the very idea of the spiritual path, you give away
things and hope you will be taken care of,
which this far in my life that has worked out very well. Allthought mostly
it has been my mother that has taken up the slack when others into the world have
dropped the ball. So the decision to
put information about what I have learned as well as information based entirely on the concepts
of the free and easy accsess to different forms of
information, those that are not ready
will not hear it anyway, so is is a good idea to do a basic web publish now and this is
sounding better and better, and put a donation box area, for those that can
donate money can and those that can donate skills and talents can, this is starting to become a virtual church,
and I am panicking so hard that I am thinking about getting back into the
realm of theology, because when that
is what you are supposed to be doing then all the chips fall into place, I am panicking about entering the job world
with all but no tangible skills in the arena,
and I have only in the last month learned to touch type,. It is a varluable
skill but for me it is still a new skill, one that needs lots of practice,
in, especially when I begin the
process of reading and working on and copying a dictionary, that is going to
be a bit of a challenge, but I think I
am up for it. The next thing is so get
my fingers accustomed to writing. So
that I can write and my fingers have typed at the
words at least one time. So my brain can then start to develop movement
patterns so I can type faster, but
then again the idea of practicing typing as well as as
practicing for the job market, then
again I can put into the mix the ideas
of instead of, My research has gone far past that of just basic knowledge, so
putting my basic knowledge on the net, of the basic repeat patterns, some of
my basic definitions, my guides may be a good draw, telling people there is
most here then meets the eye, and I can be trusted as not being all that
much of a flack, this is sounding
better and better, have to drum up
interest and respect some how, I may have been too secretive and private
with my stuff, my theoris
on the application of more then one form of mathmetatic, my
engineering ideas, there is no reason for them to not be included for public
information, other then the ideas that what I am
doing is giving my hard work and thoughts away for virtually free. But that does not mean that some
individuals will not leave donations of $ behind. Now the only thing I really need to do is
to determine if this really is is good idea or is
this stuff just my own little need for asseptance
and some form of validation by giving
my stuff away, I am on the get a real
job, go off to graphic arts school,
get a degree in art or certification of yes these things I know how to
do, and then off to a major
institution of learning where I get the information about history anthro, archeo, as well as my
other vast interests. So do I continue on the path of working on the web page
working on the concepts of putting basic general information about what I
have learned over the course of the last 9 years, into the web page, or do I
just try and conintue doing what I have been
attempting to do over the past few weeks and transition out of that theology,
religion, philosophy and work on getting my skill in the mundane world up to
snuff, web page info, or bury all the
stuff and work soly
on the ideas of mundainya that is a very serious question especially
since when I panick in mundainia
I slip back into the spiritual world as relay on those skills and talents, Ok after writing all that I decided to go ahead and change the
web site, but instead of addin my intense stuff I
only included basic metaphycisal information that
everyone needs sohave. Nothing to out there or controversial. Only nice, general stuff about basic
definitions of the basic ideas of metatphysics theology, there I
need to chack the rules as to making a donation or if anyone else wants
to add information to the site, I do
not have to be the only person who can possibley
have the information and can write effectively. Informtmtion on and
about donations, but
lets let the info be a good guide for now, as long as its
just general info there is no reason to ask, USA H N 2003 The W I Age 32
U W USA
H I 2004 The W J Age 33
U H USA
H J 2005 The W
Ǽ Age 34
U N USA
H Ǽ 2006 The W P Age 35
U I USA H P 2007 The W Al Age 36
U J December
Florence
Real Jeffries died The
family gathered immediately after, including emma
and me. Mom,
Pat, Peter, Bobbie, Emma, myself. That was seriously not a fun experience. USA
H Al 2008 The W S Age 37
U Ǽ Started
to work on entering school, an online Bacherlor
degree at UOP University of PHeonix. USA
H S 2009 The W T Age 38
U P USA
H T 2010 The W B Age 39
U Al USA H B 2011 The W
E Age 40
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This
page is about my life. Well lets see here, my life.
I
guess I will start in the beginning.
My
life. In years
1.
Born
in Amherst, raised in Tiffin oh.
2.
x
3.
x
4.
x
5.
x
6.
moved
to Colorado spring, co. summer 5.5
7.
flunked
out of first attempt at 2 grade. Was put into special
ed, and diagnosed with dyslexia,
8.
x
9.
I
can remember keen understandings of wanting to be creative and do creative things. Write, draw, paint, I fall in love with the
idea of making movies.
10.
x
11.
I
decided to be a novel writer,
12.
something
pulls me from novel writing, and I put the idea away for more then a few years.
13.
mom
and I move into our own house. I blow my
back out labor day weekend, I struggle with it the
rest of my life
my
teen years
my
teen years where a mixed bag of pain torture and agony. The only thing I can say good about my teen
years is that I did learn a lot about how to stay the course, and when deviated
from the course, the unfriendly consequences of not having the courage of my
convictions leads to.
So I begin junior high, and things go very down
hill fast from there. I am unable
to do just about anything good workable or constructive. I am not able to get much in the way of
parochial education, the teen years are spent in a
haze of just not working well.
Labor day weekend, second year junior high, I am starting
to get along with myself and starting to be able to function and get work
done. Instead of continuing, suffer a
back injury that has plagued me ever day since that
day.
I
bounce back and forth between monotheistic trying to make myself mold into
monotheism and back into paganism, going with paganism because even though I
lack totally knowledge on the subject, and tell everything around me that I am
a Christian, or just I do not know, I am really internally
searching all the time. I spend all my
time searching and trying to figure it all out.
It is just not easy. So I pendulum swing, but I do come up with a great pick up
line for all potential dates, “do you believe in ghosts, goblins, and things
which go bump in the night” see this is a leading question, because if they say
no, then there was no hope to begin with, if they say yes, then there is some
potential for growth and something there.
I get more interesting friends with that line both male and female, then
I can count. Unfortunately for me,
instead of spending my high school career gathering phone number and the like,
I all but break all contact except with a few friends that do not hang around
long after I leave Colorado. But that
was not a mistake since the person I
was then is no where in the
neighborhood of who I am now.
14.
I
start an ambitions plan, to instead of novel writing,
I was to write scripts, produce my own projects, and be a movie maker.
15.
my
psychic abilities turn on in full, and instead of going insane, I decide to
turn my attention toward training my psychic ability rather then
go nuts. With no help from the dominant
religions of the area I live in. I am
mostly told I am span of satin.
a. When I first
started when I was around 15, there was just one thought that kept me up at
night. That thought was of this world is
too big to have just one advanced civilization on it. Our modern civilization as we have been
taught comes out of the fertile crest.
The fertile crest is an area roughly the size of Texas and has been
settled by literally hundreds of civilizations for the past say 10000 year.
b. This concept
that our modern civilization coming out of the fertile crest is not all that
bad of an idea other then it is not all that accurate. There are some arrant facts that have been
forgotten about.
c. But back to
the point of this, when I first started my discovery of civilizations of the
world I started with a simple category, the category was that I knew that if I
looked around I could find a civilization that was equally to and or more
advanced of a civilization that did not com e out of the middle east.
d. After many
years of searching and not finding anything other then
a lot of raw data that made little to no sense.
I ran across the beginnings of a good idea. that maybe each and every
different area around the world developed and advanced themselves according to
criteria that is different then the one we where taught. But
that is another story
e.
So I looked
around the some errant facts kept getting in my way. I looked around at ancient history
specifically in Northern Europe since that was what I was studying in history
at the time, and the books as well as the teacher that taught the class kept
saying things like the Northern Europe cultures had no language but they there
rather hard to kill. The Romans had hard time and lost so many legions up there in Northern
Europe that Rome decided that it was its duty to conquer all that was up there
in Northern Europe. So
it took around 1000 years but the Northern Europe eventually conquered
Rome. Well I should be more specific
Rome was sacked by tribes from Northern Europe 4 times. It was only after the last time that the
glory of Rome could not keep itself to gather anymore. Or shall we say the powers that be decided
that having the Holy Roman Empire was not all that great an idea.
f.
Working
on psychic understanding at same time working on Production Company.
16.
move
to NM into grandmother Jeffries’s house.
What a culture shock that is.
a.
Move
away from just about everything in my that that I thought meant something and
embrace nothing. What I assumed was
going to be great, turned into my own lethargy of nothing ness.
17.
x
18.
x
19.
Graduation
year, and I head out into the world, with out a
single clue as to anything, other then I want to do a bunch of stuff that is
the definition of not workable.
a.
After
doing an amazing amount of soul searching, I have a change of heart and notice
that I no longer need to fight myself. It’s ok to be strange and unusual. So I embrace my
strange and unusual side.
b.
In
Denver this book begins
c.
I
began this book in an attempt to work with and
understand a part of my life which I did not understand. I always knew that I needed to find
something and accomplish something in this life. That idea was and sole driving force which
propelled my every decision from the time I was 7 or 8. Now before I go on, I am not special, just a spirit learning lessons here. The only thing special about me is the same
thing which makes us all special in out own
individual way. So
everyone can and must fulfill there own unlike path
and tasks in life in order to learn your own specific lesson.
20.
My
magical training starts in earnest as soon as I stop fighting it.
a.
How
I found the language in the first place
b.
Taking that knowledge of what I happening
around you, and see how it works what makes that thing tick. But not from a perspective of your
understanding see how it ticks on its own understanding. I found the Northern Europeans of the
ancient pre-Christian world, and most of there
history has been lost but what remained was hard and solid and did not add
up. So instead of the fruitless effort
of trying to find proof from existing proven documents, I decided to instead of
proving it, I would look for permanence of what they left behind. Thinking that I culture bright enough to
build what they build had to be bright enough to leave clues behind as to how
it worked. Assuming that if they knew they where dieing out, and there secrets where lost, then what they needed to do was to
take individual secrets and hid them in plane site so that there descendents could easily look and find the secrets, and put
them back together.
21.
another
year of training, with the oddest of teachers you can imagine
a.
my
training
b. My training in the craft
was not one of reading every book I could get my hands on but to talk to every one I could to see where they where coming form. I in fact did not start reading craft books
until after I owned my own metaphysical book store and read the inventory. This beginning allowed me the ability to
interact with teachers who had read the books and had done there own studies.
I studied privately by learning meditation to find the answers I was
looking for. In a short time the information came I never took a piece of channeled
information without backing it up first with evidence from at least 4 separate
sources. After from long hours working
and trying to understand the secrets I know to be there, but
was unable to find it through practical means.
The universal truths came clear to me as I was comparing the notes I was
gathering with the patterns of information which matched almost to the letter
no matter who I talked to. This I
learned latter is the cusp of the my research into the
ancient culture. The ancients knew what
nature was and working with specific tools and guide points could successfully
predict the cycles of nature and before long this
knowledge was transferred into a teaching tool which when followed and observed
can guide the individual on there path toward
learning and understanding of where the individual has come form,
where you are now, and where one is going.
With these maps. The causes for
things to happen and where things are going.
Just one of the secrets I learned came from basic psychic training; I
learned that everyone opening there psychic abilities
for the first time reserve the devastation this culture could suffer if there
was not a change in the individuals understanding of life and how we can all
live better. These images are the
societal illusions we as a race create thought fear and ignorance which are
there to jolt us individually to see where we are and where we are going. Certain unchangeable feelings emotions and
general overall ideas where present.
More patterns emerged and it all came back to the first spiritual book I
picked up in my first metaphysical store.
"The Book of Runes" by Ralph Blum. Thought other research the word rune is not
an actual description of the language but is in fact a Latin word meaning, Runa, or rune, for "Hidden or Secret meaning", which still holds the
intention in modern English. As my
research continued what I read of other runes writers and researchers had huge
logical and philosophical gaps to it.
Since they where writing from a different
knowledge basic. Some from the
Anglo/Saxon, the Viking, and the Odin understands. All of which are valid
but they cover specific ideas. There is
a basic message intermixed through the different books. The runic symbols and the understandings of
everyday life actually have a great deal in common
which are enormous bridges of understanding we can pick up. If we can figure out the secrets our
ancestors have left for us in our own way then we may
be able to understand others as to what is going on in there
life. Then the mysterious symbols carved
into rock telling of as yet not totally understandable
stories of another time will be finally understood. When that happens
we will have a large glimpse into our past to learn the lessons contained there
as well as the lessons we have learned form not having
that knowledge
c. About the time I
discovered the Edda's a wise older woman told me when I discussed the Edda’s
with her as to whether I should purchase them to read and research she told me
the key which shaped my life. "Son
the people of ancient Europe where a highly advanced and sophisticated group of
people who had never heard of Judaism much less lived there lives under a
Christian government, the men who wrote the Edda's wrote under the Christian
flag, they where not Christens but the influences are
there. Go within yourself to discover
who you are, what you are need to discover and most
important remember your history. What
happened when, in what country, and who was writing the history". At that she walked away. Following most of the confusion in the
language was in the 200 C.E. to 800 C.E. the time of the Anglo/Saxon influence
on Britain. A mass religion was creates out of the bodes of the 6
major religion of the period. The
Roman, the Greece, the Egyptian, the Celtic, the Nordic/Germanic, and the
Goddess today this religion is know
as Wicca. This provided me a unique
perspective to see the arts, the craft, and the alternative religions. Allowing for a different outlook at every thing with this idea in
mind. These events can be followed
thought observing the natural course of development thought time and cultural
exchanges
22.
I
get married to a woman for more like an escape, but its
cool she used me the same as I used her, we both loved the idea of not being
alone. And having a partner that cared and could negotiate enough with to get
at least some needs met.
a.
I
began this project a couple of years after beginning to learn the runes. This project is all about a simple question
"Where did these symbols and language come from?"
b.
Part
2 of this book
c.
This
book turned into the form you see now thought channeling. I would go into a deep meditation, focus on
a specific time, idea, or ask for guidance as to what I needed to learn next. I would start to see pictures scenes and
experience what was going on. I learned
how to tell year time by my knowledge of history and I looked for clues as to
the age of the situation. If there was
no way of telling or the facts I know contradicted what I saw I asked my guide
the year according the to my understanding of the Gregorian calendar. My friends started listening and writing
down what I has saying. I discovered when I read the stories this was
Ancient Europe. A world very different
then any history book will every tell you.
A world of mystery, magic, Fairies, and the unknown wrapped into a
culture who's height was many centuries before the
Greece’s formed there city states. This
was a matriarchal world of wandering tribes or families. The people were called the Celts and they
wandered living within the cycles of nature and the balance and harmony of life
with the land. There
philosophy of life eventually formed into a language which would over several
more hundreds of year be know
as the runes.
d.
The
runes by classic definition are an ancient deviation devise. The ancient
Northern European tribes used them as not only to determine the future but also
to aid and assist them selves in every
day life. What we know about the runes is that the Romans after the
Nordics refused to tell or share the knowledge of what there language meant called it runa
meaning secret or hidden meaning the runes themselves are a combination of
divination and language. But they do it in a way very different then classic
tarot or astrology. The runes at there heart are a symbolic
divination devise used by individual tribes stretching from green land to the
steps of Russia. Different versions have even been found in the desert to the
southwest.
e.
A
language philosophy, calendar. And incredibly accurate achievement most are still
unknown as to how they where constructed.
f.
But
the secrets to the language the vary reason I stared
this in the dist place was that I was sure that the
Latin and German would runes meaning ..... had tome a
double pun.. I
last laugh if you will... So I started reading for me season storing always the
austral truncated copies of the ancient text from which the others I read took
there direct meaning but read took there direct meanings but I read
independents of interpreting and read them.
Actually who I read was several generations
always from the actually text but instead of looking at the puzzle from the
direction over one else take in its deciphering I took another tack. So I began to read
and boy when there confusing. all kinds of different ideas and concepts all
rolled into one idea after another. As
I learned more I realized that there where actually
different languages involved in thesis process.
Different cultures at least 6 if not more for
1000 bce to 1100 ce. I stopped in my tracks, 2100 years, I
language that changes over a generation 24 years wow over 2000 years. SO I began the task
if removing the cultural bias of different additions by reading individual
cultures who what culture al understanding was there spirituality. Once that was isolated the rest was
easy. Aster all different definitions
where isolated into individual sub groups together and a common link appeared through out all. In
some cases vague references. ( this I found in
the later translations) and defined will though out concepts that older the
definitions there I received the best input I could have, The 2 men responsible for writing the
history both where writing under the thumb of the inquisition. The inquisition, a very powerful suppressive force/ so
I was happy I did not read there work, no wonder
everything got confusion. So I continued. I
take all the stuff that’s similar and put it together. It flows well. Its sort of
understandable
g.
The
meanings take on instead of being vague constructs of the reader’s imagination.
They take on an almost langrage quality. But the symbols have still to much vainness to there formulation. I review the history of the events.
Vanier balanced cutler. The desire. Strongly patriarchal almost meditarian in there
beliefs. Reading the history and reading the symbol meanings are different. I
consult with rune people and my self by thinking
about it quietly. And it occurs to me that the Vanier was well established before hand and the desire came into it. This wax an incredible concept to me. If I remove the
patriarchal masculine concepts from the symbols what would that do? Eureka.
What I fully understood the language and could almost speak it. It was amazing.
The language right there in front of me. I felt like I was the first human to
look upon a lost thing for at least 4 hundred years. Before the desire became a
calling.
h.
23.
I
start this project. Because after 2
years of working on the runes, the only way I can achieve successes with them
is by separating out the various cultures that changed the symbols language and
meanings.
24.
shakra and I start out rune making and booklet
business. Its goes very successfully.
For about 8 months then we loose interest. Shakra and I split,
up, mostly because can not bend the self enough to give to each other anymore with out too much personal sacrifice.
25.
I
hook up with Emma. Which also is a nice
person to be with. And out needs match
much closer to that of Shakra and myself. I expand the booklet into the heart of what
this web site is eventually going to be.
I start Shawn 1, and my research beginning. I see the reverse engineering, and the
Futhark is much more then anyone I have every talked
to sees.
a.
What
I have found is while researching the origins of a language within the framework
of what I could find I discovered that I map of a language used over 3 thousand
years ago had remarkable impact on modern day science. This impact derives primarily from the
Dennis clan has the dominant alpha traits.
Linda and k left do not but Linda after so much experience toward Linda
and k wanted out.
b.
In
the 24 see where the Linda to personal traits are from parents down the line . It is in the genes
but earthly changes tell the genes what to do there it is possible to change
certain patters of the human development towards changing the symbols
assassinated with a certain action. Further more . There are more that
just basic action reaction alpha beta positive negative powers weakness.
c.
So behind what are your dominating traits. Your mother father dominate
submissive traits. Discovering this will
help our own walk. To find out who you
are and where you are going, also find out how you will react to given
situations.
d.
I
began this thesis with the general understanding that I was looking for a different way of looking gat life. The way I was raised was the way most
people are raised thinking the there was only one way in which to life ones life you either got an
education and pursued the goals of that educational format or you got a factory
job and worked for a living. The
concept did not bug me until I realized that the format in which I was informed
the educational prose’s was all based on the same thing. Most of the formats can be traced back to
middle eastern thinking Not that there is
anything wrong with middle eastern thinking but I
really wanted to find out if by chance there was another way of looking gat the world rather then trying
to determine of =x. So
I then went to the word of the spiritual and found there where vast cultures. Farr different then the middle eastern
philosophy in which one could learn about and explore
e.
26.
Emma
and I open a metaphysical book store.
27.
sold
the book store and move to NM, to reassemble what ever
I need to there. Met life long friends,
and my education into myself starts.
28.
x
29.
move
to cali for 3 years.
30.
move
to Seattle for 3 years
been
in fl for 4 months.